I want to be free from the emotions that are inside of me right now. I am hurt, yes. I am worn down. I am a little hung over maybe...It's either a normal bad headache or it's a hangover. I needed the drinks that I had last night. Honestly I haven't felt that tipsy in a LONG time.

Yesterday was a good day for me to escape from my emotions and pain, from my confusion of where to go now, what to work towards, how to dress, how to shop, what to eat, how to do my hair, how to work, where to work...The end of a relationship, or the end of the possibility of one can really be a painful thing. I understand it, but I don't at the same time....

I want passion. How can I find it again?
I want to run away. Can I afford to do it?
I want to love and be loved in return. Will it ever last?