I'm bitter. I'm hurt. I'm cold. I'm lonely. I am desperate for change. I am confused. I am feeling a little lost right now. My emotions are on the down and it is about the worst timeing possible right now. I am short staffed at work, but so short staffed that I can't even hire someone right now. There is another store in the mall that is hiring a manager who starts at a dollar more then I make. I want to move to the island more then ever. I feel like my only close friend is someone who I have a history with and should perhaps cut back on the friendship with. I was recently told (at 2:30am) by someone that I deeply love that he does not love me and that there may be someone else that he is interested in.

I just dont know what to do right now. I am trying to keep it together and to stay focused on my dreams, but it is hard right now. Really hard.