I have been watching all these shows tonight about weddings. Ya, bad idea. I am only 22 and it is so easy to look around me and see enough people getting married, I dont need to fill my mind more with thoughts of other people being happy and in love with someone whom they can share everything with. I am jealous, that I must admit. As much as I am happy that I am not tied down, and that I am learning more about me on my own terms, I would love to have that special someone to share everything with. There is so much talk about love and weddings and stuff lately that it is just hard sometimes to pretend like I am fine. I am not super fine. I am happy for those that are getting married. I cried with joy during all the shows tonight. I just am excited for the moment of my engagment, and my plans and parties, and my dress, and my honeymoon in Paris. The honeymoon is the only thing that I am allowing myself to get my heart set on...however if I go to Paris before I am married (which is super possible) I might plan to spend my honeymoon in somewhere else exotic...like India, or Aruba, or Bangladesh. Who knows I suppose. I am trying to have patience and I will and I am. I just need to cut back on these shows I suppose, or find more things that I love about not being married, or technically "with" anyone.
Off to chill out.