I warned you....
I right now despise the male gender...ok, I despise certain males, a certain type, and at this moment a certain one. Maybe it is because I did not get what I want, but seriously...if you offer to do something, then stick to it. If you say that you are not going to speak to your ex, (someone who you claim it is erally over with, that it will never happen, and that you say you see how she manipulates you) then dont talk to her. If only you knew the truth that i knew. If only you understood it all. Not that I like to quote brand name slogans, but this one is just so fitting, JUST DO IT! Do what you say you will. If you are not sure that you will stick to what you are saying then dont say it. Say that you want to do it, but you are not sure how. No matter what happens in life there are resources to get you through what ever you are trying to accomplish. Maybe you dont have the resources but someone out there does. Find them, and get the resources! If you really want to get better of course, otherwise just shut up.
That's all. I'm done.