One minute my life is crazy, then next, it is dull...
What is wrong with me anyway? Monday? Could it just be that it is monday? Just another day that we make out to be so much more than it is...
What is wrong with you? I say damn your mood swings.
I really can't handle all of this right now. You tell me that you're jealous, but that you want me to be happy. You think that my being with someone else will make me happy, will be for the better for me in the long run. I love you still, and I am sure that I always will. Every time I think about the situation I feel like I am turning my back on you. I don't want to turn my back on you. I feel like I am choosing favorites. Like I said, I love you. I don't want to walk away from what we have, and for what we could be. Part of me however thinks that you and I are doomed to never be what I could be with someone else though. I don't know how willing I am to take the risk of loseing you forever, of maybe loseing you to something that might not last. You are right, it might be great, but I don't know that for sure.
I am so confused...
A brief hiatus might be the best thing for me to clear my mind of the whole thing. Not only a hiatus from you, but from other situations (people) in my life that are influences on the situation. I need to gather my thoughts to figure this all out...
I just need time to rest and think.