Why are we who we are? Why did what happen today, and yesterday have to happen? Did it have to happen? Am I in control, am I the one who makes these things happen to me? Is it my fault for being ill these past few days? Did I do something to myself, did I forget to do something to myself that made me sick? Is it my personal problem if you don't love me, or if you become angry with me? When I cry, is it my choice? When I make a left turn instead of a right, do I do it because something inside of me is leading me there? Is that beeping noise in my head or is it reality? Do I belong here? Ddid I not get the job because I belong here or because there is something better out there for me? Is where I go, or that I go my decision, or did something happen that is causing me to have to leave? Is there a reason for all of this? Is there an answer to my question? Will I be wondering why this happened to me for the rest of my life? Will everything work out the way I want it to? Is what I want, really what you want? Am I being lied to? Am I being decieved? Am I being used? Am I blinded by my own love?
Dull...dull...dull...is that what this entry was/is?