Life has been such a mesh and such a blur lately. I don't know where to start...Mostly I have been working days and then spending time with the boyfriend after work. It seems like everytime I have tried to make real plans with someone they seem to not work out for one reason or another. I hate that, but it has really caused me to become a more patient person, and I suppose that is a good thing. Still, I with that things would work out more often.
I miss my friends.
Your flowers are beginning to wilt and that makes me a little sad. But I do find joy in the little things that I can do for you on a regular basis (like buying you those flowers). I hope it makes up for the moments when I am down.
Can we spend some time together soon? I miss talking for hours on the phone or meeting up for coffee before the Gate. I feel out of the loop with us as friends. I know that things are still good between us, I only wish that I felt that we were close again. I am really sorry for not making the effort to talk or go out for coffee. I hope that you are feeling up for it sometime soon as it is something that I am really wanting to do. Can you help me to make it happen?
Things are looking up and the sun is beginning to shine again. I have a new hair cut and a new understanding that not everyone loves me the way I want them to love me. Not everyone is perfect and I understand that. I am growing in patience every day now. Thank you for being patient with me as I learn and grow. Please continue to communicate with me everything that would help me. I want to be a better person and I am open to critisism, as long as it is done out of love.
Let's talk.